Life

I am horrible at blogging. Clearly, if it takes me 6 months in between blogs when I said I was ready. ha.

Here's the deal though, I'm pretty sure one person maybe two read this thing. The one person who reads it is also the only one who encourages me to write in it. She is also someone who gets to hear what is in my heart on a regular basis so my logical thinking is like this: "if she's the only one that reads this thing as well as the only one who encourages me to write in it so she can read it and she also gets to hear my heart on a regular basis, then what the heck am I writing on this thing for?" So there is my reasoning for extended lulls in my writing on this blog. Correct me anyone if you read this thing, making it more than one person who reads it. I used to blog a lot back in the day about the happenings in my life, which I'm not about doing that to the extent that I did before. I don't want just anyone to be able to get a glimpse that deep into my emotions and heart. A little sure, because we write out of who we are, so of course a glimpse in is going to happen but not like it used to. That is reserved for those who have earned trust and are mature enough to carry and protect what is in me.

Speaking of ...

To handle hearts with care is something that I want to be known for by all, not because I say it but only because I do it. I am an actions person. You can give me all the words you want but if your actions do not parallel, I question your words. I also do that with myself. I always work at making sure my words and actions align. No, I'm not perfect but I do work intentionally on it and care about it.

I think being full of care, especially as christians, of everyones hearts is a core value that all should adopt. The heart is the most important part of a person. Life comes out of it. Life. LIFE. [crap, i just got a flood of thoughts that all connect in with this ... do i go through those thoughts or not? ... we'll see]

Life. It's love, creative and creativity comes from this place, innovative, breath taking, mysterious, concious, thoughtful, intricate, broad, expandable, it doesn't end but can be quenched. This list is vastly limited because there is no way I could ever come close to describing it anyway, so there are a few discriptional words for Life for you off the top of my head. Psalm 4:23 "Watch over your heart with all diligence, for from it flow the springs of life."


In 2005 I had just started reading the bible for real. In about month 6 of reading I came across Colossians 1:16 "For by him all things were created: things in heaven and on earth, visible and invisible, whether thrones or powers or rulers or authorities; all things were created by him and for him." Then the Father (I didn't know it was him at the time but I do know now it was his voice out of the trinity that was speaking) said to me, "Katrina, that includes people's hearts. They are not yours, they are all mine, treat them as such. I look at the hearts of man and I see their actions." I instantly died. Amen. 


So this encounter with Him has dictated how I approach, treat, see, look at and engage people. I haven't been perfect because I'm not perfect. He knows though. He knows he killed me. Killed me dead. So that He can live in there amongst imperfect actions but perfect and holy desire. It's the great thing about Him living in us. He makes our desires holy and loves us to change behaviors that will line up with those desires. What a journey. The journey of life. My heart and everyone else's heart are not mine or for me. They are his and for him. All the time, every second of every day of every year, for eternity. I am not my own and you are not mine. I am blessed to enjoy myself and those around me every day, paying attention to the life that flows from the hearts of the redeemed and those still to step into redemption through the Christ. 


Looks like that's all for now.